Confessions of the Chronically Frustrated

The way I love Has Yet to be reciprocated.  My love language? A dialect no one speaks. My head's underwater. No snorkels allowed. I wade in a sea of  My own ill-gotten tears.  The pain? Seemingly beyond my threshold. Yet, I still love the way I  love. I refuse to let my heart harden. For there are few things in this life Stronger than a docile heart.  A heart that loves so easily. Yet begs itself, Pleads with itself, Blood curdling cries Highlighting the desire to take That love BACK for itself.  For it's beauty has been worn. The substance of it laced with hurt. It's unfair! But it SO can be repaired.  It's pliability makes it malleable. Giving, The Potter, free reign  To breathe life into me, While my wounded heart lay in repair. Spinning the clay-like organ As I journey along Protected.   On a divine ventilator, Waiting. The vitality of my vessel spins Between the loving hands of, The Truth. Every indentation, Every impression, Made love to so sweetly, So passiona

Heyyy!!! My good golly it's been a while since I passed through here. The Lyme induced dyslexia has been at bay for a while now so I figured I say hi. I've missed you guys!!! Since I last posted, MY GAWD , have things in my life changed?!-- Today I turn 31 years old and my mind simply cannot conceive it! I'm blessed. Who knew this day would come other than God?? 'Cause I for sure damn didn't. *shrugs* (I know we can use emojis now but the asterisk life just feels right today. lol) I dunno if you can sense it yet but I come to you all today drentched in so much joy! Sincerely. And it feels kinda scary to say outloud. B/c every other time I THOUGHT I was headed in the right direction in life, Life's, petty ass would snatch me RIGHT back with the quickness. It was a nevering ending cycle. To the point that I was left with so much egg on my face, I was afraid of speaking positively over my own life. Scared of getting my feelings hurt once again due to