Let's just begin. What the fuck?! What the ACTUAL FUCK?!??! <~~~ That has literally been the question on my mind for weeks now. *overstated, confused shrug* WTF?! My soul just seems like a punching bag at this point. My heart hurts, fatally! I feel like I can never begin to help you understand just what I go through/feel on a regular basis. I can say, please revert back to previous posts like, "My Burning Desire" and "The Frustration Mounts" ... but there are many frustrations that deal nothing with my illness... at least not completely. My crippling fear of failure was here long before Lyme. I am afraid of fucking up, even in the slightest. I wear my pride on my sleeve, and if I try something and completely screw it up... Ohhhh , it'd be a loooonnnnnggg time before I tried that shit again!!!! That's why I'm afraid to commit... to anything!!! People, hobbies, hair lengths!!! I'm a mess and I've been a mess. I'm crazy.
I have been battling a weakened immune system most of my life. And for well over a decade, I've been ill with Late Stage Lyme Disease, but having just been diagnosed, April 2013. Now, USUALLY, I don't like to share my business BUT I'm finding I'm not the only one living a life filled w/ pain. So follow me and better understand my tale of the sheer unnecessary! Whether you can learn/relate OR even get a laugh or two out of this, it's DEF worth the read... ENJOY THE RIDE!!!... somebody has to;)